What's Left Of Me...

[ladyofavalon77]

Ok there are really too many great songs out there for Martha and Charles so I should be able to keep this up ad infinitum (is that a word?).  Well, I was watching my favorite show of the new season: Dancing With The Stars and guess who was on?  Nick Lachey!!  And Drew was there! I so wanted him to get up and dance but oh well.  Maybe in an upcoming results show :D  One can dream right!  Anyways back on topic.  Nick was singing "What's Left Of Me" and it's perfect for Charles.  I mean it talks about how this guy loves this girl but now that she's gone he's falling apart.  She was the one who made him what he was and he misses her desparately.  Martha and Charles, don't you think?

"What's Left Of Me"

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

[Chorus]
Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man I thought I would be:
But you can have what's left of me



I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You gave me a reason for standing still

[Chorus]

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's not all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

[Chorus]

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Just running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me? 
And I have been looking for a song that portrays Martha's capacity to forgive Charles for what happened.  And I have found it with Nick again (Gosh his songs are perfect!!). Here he describes the desparation of Martha so perfectly, even her time in Vermont.  I love how it shows that she tried everything to make the marriage work but Charles just walked away and there was nothing she could do. Best of all are the words of forgiveness. *happy sigh*

"I Can't Hate You Anymore"

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
...I can't hate you anymore.




You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore [x2]

*happy sigh*  If I haven't said it before, I'll say it now...I'm officially smitten by this couple :)

Sometimes it's not even worth the effort...